What a WONDERFUL DAY .... I woke up with "Bedhead"!!!!!!!!! Is there anything better than that .... PRAISE GOD for bedhead! You all take that so for granted! I appreciate my bedhead :-)
I'm sad today ..
I'm sad because it hurts too much so I can't go "work my business" and we need the money
I'm sad because I can't be in the fashion show Thursday - can't wear a bra and need that "boob"
I'm sad because I have REALLY watched what I ate last week (no sweets) and I gained another 3 pounds - I weighed 134 when I started and I just hit 150! The doctor said 20-40 pounds so I should feel good - but when I look in the mirror I see this GIGANTIC person and it makes me sick
I'm sad because I don't sleep well so I don't have the energy during the day to get much done.
I'm sad because I just want to feel like myself
BUT, I'm HAPPY because my God knows all of this .. is here with me ... loves me ... and will take care of me! He has bigger and better plans for me .. In HIS timing ... HIS way ... I just have to give it ALL to Him!
Ok, so there is one more step to this cancer journey! Yesterday, after radiation was done, I took the tape off that they used to "mark" where to "beam". Well, because my skin was so fried - the skin peeled off to! Yes, PAINFUL! I am now being treated as a "burnt" victim in those 3 small areas - special creams and bandages etc. Pain pills a must!
Oh well - this too shall pass!
Then, we'll start that next journey!
Living day by day as my Heavenly Daddy told me to - making the most of it for His Good!!
Talk later
I AM DONE!
In the past year, I have had 3 surgeries, 6 months of chemo, and 7 weeks (shy 1 day) of radiation, and today I AM OFFICIALLY DONE!
Because of your love, prayers, and support - and most importantly with my Heavenly Daddy carrying me - I HAVE MADE IT!!!!
I have learned so much through this journey - I have seen good come from it (just like God promised) - I have experienced joy even when circumstances are not so good - I have made friendships that will last a life time and I AM READY FOR MY NEXT JOURNEY :-)
Thank you for walking this journey with me - thanks for being a friend!
Here's to sleeping in tomorrow morning and letting my brown leather skin heal ..... HERE'S TO BEING A 10 MONTH CANCER SURVIVOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God is Good - and so is my support team!!!!!!!!
With love to you all - have a blessed day,
Donna
ONLY 3 MORE DAYS OF RADIATOIN – PRAISE GOD! Yes, driving to radiation today was so bitter/sweet. Bitter because the pain is enough to make me take pain pill at night to sleep – sweet because this is the last week and then IT IS OVER!
On one hand, it feels like the longest year of my life... 3 surgeries, 6 months of chemo, 6.5 weeks of radiation. I’ve had pain, physical therapy, no hair, nausea, mouth sores, severe burn, weight gain (that doesn’t want to leave), and fatigue to the point I didn’t feel much of a “participant’ of life. On the other hand, it went by fast. God helped me deal with the day in front of me – not worry about the next day until it got here. I MADE it with God’s help through a hard year – and looking back – it doesn’t seem all that terrible.
I started my blog with “the positives of cancer”. I am coming to the end and I want to leave with positives.
1. God kept His promise and never left my side
2. God gave me His strength and courage to face each day as it came
3. God used my pain and rough journey for His good – so that I could show others you can get through cancer WITH God – not on your own
4. God gave Lon the strength to watch “his best friend” hurt and He gave Lon the compassion Lon needed to give to me when he was hurting inside himself
5. God loved my children and took care of them when I couldn’t be “mom”
6. God provided for our needs – shelter, food, and monthly doctor payments (even if I’ll be making payments until I’m 100)
7. God hugged me when I need a hug and God give me a gentle kick in the “behind” when I needed to pick myself up and keep going
8. God showed me areas where He still needs me to serve for Him – teaching parents to be parents – the serving ended up not being just good for those parents – but good for me because it gave me purpose
9. GOD HUGGED ME THIS WHOLE YEAR – CARRYING ME AND NEVER LET ME DOWN!
I fear that my cancer will come back. I am tried and sit here now with raw burnt skin that kills. However, I know that if it does come back – and I have to start this cancer journey over again – God will be there doing it again with me.
Doesn’t that make our mission of spreading God’s news to others so much more powerful!??! I COULD NOT have gone through this year without God! I don’t want anyone else to have to try. Find one person EVERY DAY that you can show God’s love to – we have a world that is hungry and ready to listen – you just need to be God’s spokesperson!!!!
This is Breast Cancer Month of Awareness – for me – be God’s hands and feet this month!
Love you all – and yes – having so many of you support me through this journey was God’s way of taking care of me too!!!!!