I'm sad today ..
I'm sad because it hurts too much so I can't go "work my business" and we need the money
I'm sad because I can't be in the fashion show Thursday - can't wear a bra and need that "boob"
I'm sad because I have REALLY watched what I ate last week (no sweets) and I gained another 3 pounds - I weighed 134 when I started and I just hit 150! The doctor said 20-40 pounds so I should feel good - but when I look in the mirror I see this GIGANTIC person and it makes me sick
I'm sad because I don't sleep well so I don't have the energy during the day to get much done.
I'm sad because I just want to feel like myself
BUT, I'm HAPPY because my God knows all of this .. is here with me ... loves me ... and will take care of me! He has bigger and better plans for me .. In HIS timing ... HIS way ... I just have to give it ALL to Him!