ONLY 3 MORE DAYS OF RADIATOIN – PRAISE GOD! Yes, driving to radiation today was so bitter/sweet. Bitter because the pain is enough to make me take pain pill at night to sleep – sweet because this is the last week and then IT IS OVER!
On one hand, it feels like the longest year of my life... 3 surgeries, 6 months of chemo, 6.5 weeks of radiation. I’ve had pain, physical therapy, no hair, nausea, mouth sores, severe burn, weight gain (that doesn’t want to leave), and fatigue to the point I didn’t feel much of a “participant’ of life. On the other hand, it went by fast. God helped me deal with the day in front of me – not worry about the next day until it got here. I MADE it with God’s help through a hard year – and looking back – it doesn’t seem all that terrible.
I started my blog with “the positives of cancer”. I am coming to the end and I want to leave with positives.
1. God kept His promise and never left my side
2. God gave me His strength and courage to face each day as it came
3. God used my pain and rough journey for His good – so that I could show others you can get through cancer WITH God – not on your own
4. God gave Lon the strength to watch “his best friend” hurt and He gave Lon the compassion Lon needed to give to me when he was hurting inside himself
5. God loved my children and took care of them when I couldn’t be “mom”
6. God provided for our needs – shelter, food, and monthly doctor payments (even if I’ll be making payments until I’m 100)
7. God hugged me when I need a hug and God give me a gentle kick in the “behind” when I needed to pick myself up and keep going
8. God showed me areas where He still needs me to serve for Him – teaching parents to be parents – the serving ended up not being just good for those parents – but good for me because it gave me purpose
9. GOD HUGGED ME THIS WHOLE YEAR – CARRYING ME AND NEVER LET ME DOWN!
I fear that my cancer will come back. I am tried and sit here now with raw burnt skin that kills. However, I know that if it does come back – and I have to start this cancer journey over again – God will be there doing it again with me.
Doesn’t that make our mission of spreading God’s news to others so much more powerful!??! I COULD NOT have gone through this year without God! I don’t want anyone else to have to try. Find one person EVERY DAY that you can show God’s love to – we have a world that is hungry and ready to listen – you just need to be God’s spokesperson!!!!
This is Breast Cancer Month of Awareness – for me – be God’s hands and feet this month!
Love you all – and yes – having so many of you support me through this journey was God’s way of taking care of me too!!!!!