You hear the words, “You have breast cancer”. Your mind is flooding with thoughts … will I die being the heaviest. This lies on your mind every time you feel a twitch, you get a headache, and you feel something “strange” in your body. You lay in bed wondering if there are some cells floating around invading your good cells. It’s such a big idea to have to grasp... I have cancer.
However, it’s NOT the scariest. No, that’s the chemo! The questions you ask yourself about the chemo are … will I loose all of my hair… will I throw up consistently … will I have any energy to function ... will I be able to do the shopping and feed my family?
I find myself in a place that is overwhelming! You see, I DON’T have to ask all of those questions – I did ask about the hair. I don’t have to worry about my house or my family. Why, because GOD said I don’t have to do anything alone. He is with me! Obviously, God isn’t about to come down and fix dinner (wouldn’t that be just way too cool), but He sent His servants!
In just a couple of hours, I’ll be attending my Birthday/Last Hurrah Before Chemo party with my support group – my neighbors, friends, and church family! Yes, I just took a sponge bath (can’t get the 3rd surgeries’ bandages wet), fixed my hair and did my nails, for tonight we are going to PARTY! These people really know how to show GOD’s love! It’s totally amazing.
We have dinners in the freezer and more on the way. We’ve had numerous offers for childcare and even cleaning my house. I’ve received prayer support from around the country. I have received financial gifts to help with the cost of wigs and anti-nausea meds ($33 a pill – YIKES). I will have NO NEEDS during my 6 months of chemo. I do not fear this Monday morning (9:30 the drip begins). I love you all for that!
I can’t imagine someone facing chemo with no support system! How can they do it! I can’t imagine having a negative attitude unless you don’t have a support team. I have been told that with a positive attitude and a support team – I will beat this cancer! I just needed to tell you all – that because of you all – I HAVE BEATEN THIS CANCER! Thank you SO MUCH for being God’s servants! Thank you for loving my family and me! I pray that I learn from you all and shower others with the love that you have shown me!
NOW… LET’S GO PARTY!
Donna, as I read, I see a book in the making, for those experiencing chemo personally and family members who are very much apart of this journey. You are so honest and very articulate!
Love you,
Aunt Carol